The Journey to 8Restoration


Hidden behind monsters and walls of steel, lie treasure.

All of it within us, all of it created by us.

Breathless joy and crippling pain.

One does not exist without the other.  One can never grow without the other.

But what happens when our expectations of joy fall short?

What happens when the sting of pain festers too deep?

Do we erect a prison, safe within our walls, and wait for somebody to show up with a key?

Or do we close our umbrellas and dance in the rain?

Find a sword and face the dragon?

The journey to 8Restoration is not a carefully plotted trip to a far away land.  The path is not always clear or free of debris.  It’s a trek much closer to home; one that spans the terrain of our own minds.

And the answers you seek about Oscar and Reeva… They do not exist in a bathroom at 3am.  They do not exist in a fifteen minute window of time.  They exist over years, in the dark corners that nobody has addressed… that nobody wanted to see… nobody until now.   This journey to 8Restoration will open your eyes, make you pay attention and make you question everything you think you know.

I have no idea to this day what those two Italian ladies were singing about. Truth is, I don’t want to know. Some things are best left unsaid. I’d like to think they were singing about something so beautiful, it can’t be expressed in words, and makes your heart ache because of it. I tell you, those voices soared higher and farther than anybody in a gray place dares to dream. It was like some beautiful bird flapped into our drab little cage and made those walls dissolve away, and for the briefest of moments, every last man in Shawshank felt free.

8Restoration is available on Amazon… here



Defense Team #B$

defense team

“As far as I could see people were always conning each other to get what they wanted. We even con ourselves. We talk ourselves into things, you know, we sell ourselves things. When we don’t even need or want, you know, we’re dressing ’em up. We leave out the risk, we leave out the ugly truth.” – Irving Rosenfeld, American Hustle

I want to hear from all of you…

What were the most notable bullshit moments from Oscar’s defense team during trial? 

Here are a few from my list:

1. Oscar screams like a woman. 

2.  Roux comparing Oscar to an abused woman in his closing.

3.  Oscar had Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). 

4.  Dixon, the Geologist. 

5.  Double Taps. 

Ok go… 





Who Called the Ambulance… and When?

crime_1The Oscar Trial never disappoints with mysteries to unravel!

Let me know your theories and thoughts…

Who’s telling the truth?

Who’s lying?  And why?





Dr. Stipp went back outside (after examining Reeva) and asked Stander if the ambulance was on their way. Stander said no, he hadn’t called them yet so Stipp called the Wilgers Hospital emergency department and asked them to send an ambulance. They told him he had to call an emergency number directly, not them.  So Stander then dialed Netcare and handed his phone to Stipp who spoke to the dispatcher.  Stipp described the nature of Reeva’s injuries to them.



Stander states that while he was outside, shortly after arriving at OP’s, Dr. Stipp arrived. He introduced himself as Johan and stated that he was a medical doctor. Stander says that he asked Stipp to go inside and see if he could assist. He also asked Stipp for the number to an ambulance because he couldn’t get a hold of them. Stipp gave him the number 082911. Stander then phoned 082911 and managed to get through.

While he was speaking on the phone (he indicates for several minutes), Stipp came back out. Stander states he said to Stipp he was having a hard time explaining to the dispatcher how to get to the house, so he handed the phone to Stipp who then spoke with the dispatcher.

[NOTE:  On cross examination, Nel wants to know what they (Stander & Stipp) discussed. Did they discuss the injuries? Stander says no, Stipp just told him that she had a fatal head wound but he did not discuss any of the other injuries with him.  Nel asks him if Oscar or anybody else told him how many wounds she sustained. Stander says no. Nel then asks, “not even your daughter?” Stander pauses, then answers, “I can’t recall.”  But wasn’t Stander with Stipp when Stipp detailed Reeva’s injuries for the ambulance dispatcher?



Oscar said “just take my car, put her in the car.” Carice said no, just put her down. So he placed Reeva on the ground.   At that moment, Carice’s Dad stepped outside to call the ambulance.  This was within moments of them arriving.

A few minutes later, Carice told Oscar that a doctor had arrived. She claims they were both relieved. Stipp walked in and Carice went back outside with her Dad who was still calling the ambulance. So at this point, just Stipp and Oscar were inside with Reeva, and Carice and Johan are outside on the phone.  Carice testifies that when she was outside with her Dad, she also spoke with the dispatcher.  Why?  How long does it take, and how many people does it take, to request an ambulance?

After examining Reeva, Stipp went back outside and Carice went back inside. They passed each other at the doorway. Carice said Stipp wasn’t in there very long.  Upon coming out, he stated, “it’s very bad.”



Oscar came down the stairs carrying Reeva in his arms. Baba was very shocked by what he was seeing that he couldn’t think for a few moments. How could everything be “fine” when Oscar was carrying a bleeding woman down the stairs? When Johan Stander said “OSCAR”, Baba snapped out of his shock.

At this point, Stander told Baba to go call police and the ambulance. He also gave the guards instructions to make sure that no cars were parked at Oscar’s house. Baba then left to go make the phone calls. He also called the control room office and informed the manager of what was happening. Baba never went in the house that night. He does confirm though that the lights were on inside the house.


Oscar Pistorius shooting

Police vehicles are parked outside the home of South African "Blade Runner" Oscar Pistorius in Pretoria